May is going to be the month I leave behind heartache and tears. For this whole month, every day adding on to two months after a break up, I have been trying to find my word to fill in the blank…trying to figure out what I need to be. I knew I did not need to be thinking about the boy that broke my heart because thinking made me sad and I know that God wants me to be happy. I just thought every time I cried He was probably begging me to please be happy.
JOHN 14:27 “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” I don’t want a troubled heart anymore. In accepting the peace given to me, I am committing to protecting that peace. I will not harbor unhealthy thoughts anymore.
PHILIPPIANS 4:8 “whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable-if anything is excellent or praiseworthy-think about such things…and the God of peace withh be with you.” I think I’ve always looked at this scripture as saying I should always be thinking of rainbows and butterflies- not that that would be a bad thing because of course those are lovely. But I think it is really suggesting to be more exclusive with where your mind wanders. Simply do not welcome the angry, desperate, and hard thoughts. My head and my heart will be a place to cultivate tranquility.